September 25, 2007

If I seem like a rule book sometimes, I apologize

“Do not quench the Spirit. Do not despise prophecies, but test everything; hold fast what is good” (ESV)

I believe God still speaks to His people but I think I'll do what this verse says and test what I think I hear by seeking counsel and by praying. That's why I am not sitting and planning people. Hehehe...

Yes, how tempting it is to rest on that one impression. But I know my emotional health or lack of it. I know that my desires might cloud my impressions and I know my immense tolerance for denial when it means my comfort. So God search my heart.

What do you want?

I want this BOOK!!!

What can I say, it came highly recommended. And I'm still in my Biblical Manhood and Womanhood phase. Hehehe.

Peace!

Images from my 23rd



murder the mousse



September 24, 2007

23

I am 23 today. There is no great wisdom here. Only a few lessons learned the hard way and a couple more still hammering at my heart and mind. There is a measure of regret and frustration and certainly some sadness.

Make that a lot of sadness.

September 20, 2007

Those were good times... I WANT THEM BACK!




There is a time for everything

It's nothing new when Nellie stands in the doorway of our bathroom while I'm sweating trying to scrub those vicious mildew groups off the walls and says, "Kristina, pwede ka na talagang mag-asawa."

And of course the routine reply from yours truly is "Yeah yeah..."

It got me thinking. Do I think I'm ready for marriage? What would being ready be like? By what parameters can I validly answer Tita Nona's question, "Are you ready for him?" with a yes?

I don't think I am fully ready for marriage; there's a lot of rough edges to me yet. At the same time, I don't think those edges will be smoothed out when God brings that man into my life. I can be a woman who is spiritually mature and growing, great with the household stuff, a good sister in Christ to the men I know and emotionally ready to be a wife and mother. But that does not guarantee that Mr. Man will come waltzing into my life.

Wherever I am in my journey can't be determined by things like this. I think. It's more about God's wise timing of events than my maturity, talents and abilities. And that makes me grateful to a God who knows how to plan my life and use even my flaws to His glory.

September 14, 2007

HUWAT?! Huwow!!!

ELLIOTT YAMIN WILL BE HERE!!! Yah-Meeen!!!

September 21, 2007 8:00pm Trinoma North Edsa
September 22, 2007 8:00pm Glorietta Makati
September 23, 2007 8:00pm Alabang Town Center Alabang
September 26, 2007 8:00pm Ayala Mall Cebu
September 28, 2007 8:00pm Market! Market! Taguig

"So baby I will wait for you / cause I don’t know what else I can do / don’t tell me I ran out of time / if it takes the rest of my life / baby I will wait for you..."

Ahahahaha.... Thanks to Jeff Garma for tipping me off.

This just knocks me off my feet!

September 12, 2007

Say that again will you?

Nellie on acquiring a copy of the book about the numbers behind Numb3rs:
"I'm willing to pay anything! Basta below P700."

Kristina on her comprehensive prayers for her future husband and their marriage:
"The Lord said to come to Him. So I came... with a list."

Joy on why we had to discuss certain things:
"NELLIE, this is BAY - O - LOGY. Haler."

September 11, 2007

In the Land of Melancholics

"If you kill all the phlegs in the world... wala lang. The world will go on without us," lamented LG last Sunday. See LG and Nellie are phlegamatics. This temperament is calm, cool, peaceful, and quiet. Kadalasang NR. Won't get involved/lead/initiate unless forced to do so but when they do they are extremely gifted leaders. And lately my two friends think they have nothing to contribute to society unlike the cholerics who set the world's goals, the sanguines who keep the world happy and the melancholics who provide art, music and drama.

Of course, I don't agree with any of their nonsense. The Phlegs are essential is what I say. They provide stability. They are good diplomats. They are the calm in the midst of storms. But do my friends believe me? No.

But last night, when I watched In the Land of Women with Nellie, we got a glimpse into a world where everyone was either melancholic or choleric. And it was not the prettiest picture. Melancholics go running in the rain, go kissing people they shouldn't, don't ask for help, wonder why everyone is so disappointed in them, idealize people they fall in love with, handle break-ups badly and don't recognize the people who truly love them. They get punched, they punch other people, they write long love letters, they go jogging and then they hit a tree because they jog with their eyes closed. They tend to say the wrong thing at the wrong time with all the right intentions. They tend to jump to conclusions. They also feel sad or angry for no particular reason. All highly entropic stuff. I recommend the movie. A better title for it would have been In the Land of Melancholics.

I am highly indebted to Phlegmatics like LG, Joy, Sheena and Kathy. They have kept me afloat in my periods when I did or am all of the above except the punching and getting punched part. They are my flotation devices and if they were to be eliminated from my world, I would die.
Cheers to Phlegmatics, the world's water wings!

September 10, 2007

On the 23rd I wish...

  • That my birthday was that day instead of a Monday which everyone knows is the toughest day of the week
  • For a great afternoon with six other ladies (perhaps more) over pizza, pasta and chicken wings
  • For bus tickets home
  • For a new wallet with lots of slots for all my cards and photos and a place for my coins. Something simple. Not black.
  • For a smaller version of my ESV Bible
  • For a gift certificate for Pancake House
  • A deep, rich purple spag top
  • A haircut at Azta Salon
  • For people not to get stressed over getting me something. If they really want to just remeber that I'm cheap (as in St. Francis/Divi/Greenhills kind of cheap), I love knock-offs, my love languages are time and touch and I'm easily pleased.

Hit me... hard

"You weren't exactly the most obedient one...
(leaves and then after 20 minutes, comes up to me to say)
The battle is the Lord's but Noah still built the ark."
- Nellie. Sept 9, '07

Ah, the lovely ways Nellie causes paradigm shifts in my life.

September 07, 2007

A Fresh Brew of Trouble

Mom had to use that tone of voice to get me to throw away those white ballet flats. They were so comfortable and the no-brainer addition to almost every outfit I could ever wear. They had taken me so many places and it showed. I threw them away with a heavy heart and wished I hadn't for days afterward.

It took me two years to fully move on after our less than a year together. It wasn't the person I missed I think. But the everyday, seemingly ordinary things really get to you. Having someone to talk to for hours at an end. Lunches and dinners together. Random notes and reminders. How are you? Here let me help you with that. You know better than that Krissy...

And that's how I've felt all week. I was never one to let go easily. And it really is the everyday things that get to you and tire you out. Today I feel like I've been dragged through a rougher ride than usual.

God, please help me believe that the lines have fallen for me in pleasant places, that You are my cup and my portion, that there's a reason I feel empty and that You can fill me.

September 06, 2007

Food! Food! Food!

It's the worst possible time in the month to get the blues. Really. PMSing and then the blues. Or was the blues part of the PMS?

All I want to do is eat.

Roasted chicken. Lots of romaine lettuce and honey mustard. Raisins covered in dark chocolate. Double trouble from Bread Talk. Brownies! Particulary the walnut brownies from Starbucks. Sanfo chocolate sprinkle caramel apples. Garlic pasta. Strawberries. Strawberry ice from Quickly. Adobo. Thank God that Tita Fil decided to cook some last night...

But. Still. Wanting. More.

Pepsi Max. Chocolate crinkles. Green mangoes. Even if that means getting a bad allergic reaction. Shrimp sinigang. Even if that means getting a worse allergic reaction.

And then I look in the mirror and hear "One second on your lips, forever on your hips". Woman! Control yourself! It's food for heaven's sake. NOT LOVE!

Say it with me again Appetite.

"It's food not love."

September 05, 2007

Glimpses

I was feeling sadder than usual last night. I just lay there on the top bunk, staring at Psalm 13, letting its powerful words wrap their arms around me and hoping that I will indeed cease taking counsel in my own soul ang trust in His mercy.

Then Nellie got up from the lower bunk and began teasing me. She was so cute. For a moment I thought of my future daughter. Of how she'd come and settle into my arms, give me wet kisses and hug me then say "Mommy, don't be sad. I messed up the kitchen just for you to clean and be happy."

And that made me feel lighter.

The Lord has dealt bountifully with me.

September 01, 2007

What September Means to Me

  1. I'll be celebrating another year of life and praying that the next year be better.
  2. I'm five sixths done with my training and one month closer to being a full-fledged PSRC-RI Research Associate. Market research rocks... If you choose to look at it that way.
  3. Christmas songs will be playing on the radio. It's the Philippines and our four - or is that five - month long Christmas season. I love Christmas but this part I hate. This and the packed malls.
  4. Two months more and this thing will turn into a year. Interesting. I still don't know if we're going to go somewhere else but I'm learning to enjoy this time. Walk by faith babe.
  5. Lots of work. Overtime hours and four hour nights. Lots of projects.
  6. Trying to decide on the worship leading thingy.
  7. The DCF Alumni Homecoming on the 22nd

Hello to Mcul in Texas. There dearie, did a lot of updating for you. Hehehe... Be well.